Letting Go

It's funny how life never follows a clear path.  Well, maybe funny is the wrong term to use.  I've been battling multiple sclerosis and tackling single parenting for years, and it just seems that sometimes it gets the better of me.  Hence, no real consistency with getting this website up and running.

I had big dreams for a bit.  I had my business license and ideas floating in my head.  I had time to kill and lots of quiet to work in.  

Somehow that quiet took a turn for the worse and left me feeling like it is time to just put some dreams to rest and relax for a while.

I let the city and state know I'm no longer operating a business and don't need that license anymore.

I just started letting go of what isn't working for me anymore.

Everyone that knows me seems to tell me that I'm a strong person.  But sometimes even strong people need to know when to say "no" or admit something isn't working.  Sometimes it is easier to dream when you know someone has your back and is there to support you.  When it is quiet, it is hard to keep that momentum going.  I'm almost an empty-nester with my son planning on leaving for college in 2 years.

At the end of the day, it's almost easier to just grab a book and slip into a cozy chair and get lost in another world.

I've slowly been letting go of the life I have now and working towards finding some comfort and peace despite the struggles.  I've been emptying out my home office and quilting studio.  I've lost that little desire to make my home a cozy, decorated haven.  

I've finally admitted that multiple sclerosis + stairs + me = trouble.  One too many falls.  So my son and I are downsizing and looking at apartments instead of owning my own home.  

I've also slowed down on my quilting these day. Mostly because I'm probably headed a few degrees on the wrong trajectory with uncertainty and doubt.  At least that is what someone opined during a conversation a couple weeks ago.  They also added that I'm an "isolating hermit," but that's intentional and very much a part of living with multiple sclerosis.

As I empty out more rooms and let go of some of the hopes and goals I had, I see the possibility of a clean slate to work with.  That also comes with more uncertainty and doubt.  But it is before me and something to look forward to.  Life forces us to continue to move forward, even when we have to leave what we thought we really wanted in the past.  There is always the promise of something new ahead, even when it can't be seen.

I will always have a quilt in a hoop to hand stitch away the hours, or a shelf full of books waiting to be read.  However, I think for the time being, I'll let my big dreams take a break and just enjoy the simplicity of a quiet life of simple stitches, crossword puzzles, and getting lost in those books.

Likely, I'll adjust this site to use it as a gallery for my quilts, but I think the time has come to just let go of the rest.  Time will tell for anything more than that.

Thank you for the encouragement along the way. It was enjoyable and very much appreciated.

52 Multimedia Quilts

A few days ago, I shared a list of my goals for the upcoming year and beyond.  Some of them sound quite Pollyanna, and others seem like they will be a stretch.  

One of my goals to stretch myself to be more creative was making more art quilts.  

I've set a goal of 52 quilts over the next year.  

I'm looking forward to getting back to creating multimedia art quilts.  

I used to work on them quite often, but I let other things take precedence over my time and haven't made as many lately.  I was battling a bit of a period of depression like I'd never experienced, but the new year is the perfect opportunity to shake that off and begin again.

To help me get more motivated to make my quilts, I'm actually teaching two or three people how to make multimedia quilts, and I've also entered an art show that will be held in February.  

Nothing like having accountability to keep me on my toes!!

On Monday, January 2nd, I am going to have a link up and share with you some tips and tricks for thread sketching and multimedia art quilting.  My hope is to continue with Multimedia Mondays throughout 2017.

I'll hope you join me for some fun!!

My 2017 Reading List

Most years I've got a huge reading list, and nearly every year, I don't get to all the titles I'd intended.

This year, I've started out with a list of 12 classic novels, including modern classics.  I might add to my reading list as I go along, but I think I'd be happy if I just got through these 12 books this year.  Many I've already read, but I'd just like to read them again, a few I've started reading and set down never to finish.  

  • War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy

  • Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

  • Moby-Dick by Herman Melville

  • Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte

  • The Call of the Wild by Jack London

  • The Wind in the Willows by Kenneth Grahame

  • Mrs Dalloway by Virginia Woolf 

  • The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald 

  • Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy

  • Emma by Jane Austen

  • Jude the Obscure by Thomas Hardy

  • Atonement by Ian McEwan

So it isn't a very long list, and most of the books are already on my bookshelf.  I'm a fan of getting lost in a novel and retreating from the stresses of every day life.  So I'm looking forward to finishing books I've never quite gotten through (Anna Karenina), rereading some I know and love, and finding a few new tales along the way.

Do you have a reading list for 2017?  I'd love to know what's on it!!