Setting Goals & Doing My Best
These past few weeks have been quite peculiar. I stepped out of my comfort zone only to realize that I stepped in the wrong direction. I made too many choices that ended up with me questioning and doubting myself, rather than making choices that would make me feel strong and confident.
Part of the problem was that I had no idea where I was going or what I was looking for. So I just fell into a big, murky swamp of uncertainty, doubt, and insecurity. This proved a little bit difficult to pull myself out of. I didn't like the outcome, but I suppose that new lows also give me a place to grow back from.
I've ended up in a place where I am forced to make changes and let go of some things, and this new jumping off point coincides almost with my birthday coming up later in the week. I've been racking my brain trying to come up with a challenge for myself. I want to do something new and start to gain back some of that confidence I've lost over the past year. I have a tendency to set goals and then lose sight of what I wanted to accomplish. I let multiple sclerosis (MS) and fatigue give me an excuse to excuse myself from completing what I set out to do. It really is a hard battle between wanting to make improvements and giving myself a free pass to give up because of MS.
I guess that one sentence sums up my dilemma pretty concisely.
I thought if I challenge myself and post it here, I'd be less likely to give up when things got hard or when I just ran out of steam. That remains to be seen. However, my game plan is to simply do my best and really try to make some changes in my life over the next year. I'd like to begin making small, incremental changes that are challenging yet result in attainable goals.
My goals for August 2017 to August 2018 are as follows:
- I am going to challenge myself to work in a series each month for the 12 months and make a mini quilt each week.
- I am going to do some form of quilting or piecing every day through the year (whether it is making a quick string block, basting hexagons, or hand- or machine-quilting) for a minimum of 15 minutes.
- I am going to write a pattern for 4 vintage quilt blocks and release once a quarter here as a tutorial.
- Write a minimum of two posts per week through the year.
- Get up one hour earlier each day to write my morning pages rather than rush through them right before work.
As a single, working mom with MS, managing a household can be quite a challenge and I have a tendency to just procrastinate on projects. My dream is to downsize my home, so over the next year, I'll be taking some steps to make that dream a reality.
- I will pay off my credit card debt over the next 12 months.
- I will work through each room of my house decluttering and minimizing the items in my house.
- I will use a OneNote notebook to organize my projects using a modified Getting Things Done method.
I really desire to start treating my MS with diet and exercise and some complementary therapies, but I haven't ever made the commitment to do so. This year, I'm focusing on making dietary adjustments and moving my body more, two things which are the first things I quit doing when I get overwhelmed or fatigued.
- I will begin making dietary changes and start relying less on processed foods.
- I will walk a minimum of 7 miles per week.
- I will use a fitness diary daily to track my exercise and diet throughout the year and also use it to keep track of my MS symptoms.
- I will take my medicines, as prescribed, instead of avoiding them, but I will also begin investigating other options for treating my symptoms.
These are pretty big goals for me to set for myself. Many days I feel like I'm facing this disease and this life on my own and just getting by instead of building the life I want. I think these goals are just what I need to get back on track. I've spent too much time letting MS or my own self doubts limit what I accomplish. I embrace imperfection. I know it won't be easy. I know some days I'll still fall down that rabbit hole of doubt, fatigue, insecurity, and uncertainty, but I will give it a go and do my best.
Do you set goals for yourself each year? What challenges do you face when working towards your goals?